Grotesque Me


Remember,remember the 5th of November

I'm so lazy today, no mood to do any shit. I read from Ron's blog and I knew the "remember, remember the fifth of November" was real, and I did some research on it since I'm so fuckin bored.
This is the full Poem that i grab from net.

Remember, remember the fifth of November,
gunpowder, treason and plot,
I see no reason why gunpowder treason
should ever be forgot.
Guy Fawkes, Guy Fawkes,
'twas his intent
to blow up the King and the Parliament.
Three score barrels of powder below,
Poor old England to overthrow:
By God's providence he was catch'd
With a dark lantern and burning match.
Holloa boys, holloa boys, make the bells ring.
Holloa boys, holloa boys, God save the King!
Hip hip hoorah!
A penny loaf to feed the Pope.
A farthing o' cheese to choke him.
A pint of beer to rinse it down.
A faggot of sticks to burn him.
Burn him in a tub of tar.
Burn him like a blazing star.
Burn his body from his head.
Then we'll say ol' Pope is dead.
Hip hip hoorah!
Hip hip hoorah!
Guy Fawkes,the Gunpowder plot, the treason has been executed for treason and attemped murder on the 5th of November 1605.

That's a long story about Guy Fawkes, and more info just go to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Guy_Fawkes

cause i'm tired now.

V for Vendetta,again.

I just watch V for Vendetta, ya, again. But this time is DVD. I purposely buy it,couse the movie is really owe some and I dont feel it's bored at all even I watched the 2nd time.

Well, later, 1pm. Suppose is my assignment submittion, but I've have fuckin no idea that's wrong with the lecturer, he delay it to next week and so many of us doesn't know that. Is that the fault of the system?or the lecturer him self? Seriously, I really fucked up right now, FUCK that man.

Feel sleep right now, thanks for people who did care what i wrote in this blog,and thanks for 'wasting' for time here. Hope you enjoy my noncence.

Good Night,everyone.

Nice to hear your voice.

This morning,
you send me a msg.
That is so touching.
You let me know that you are still loving me.
That's good.

Just now, You called me.
So happy to hear your voice.
I don't ask for continue the relationship.
Because I want us really think about it.
Before you decide or I do.

Dear, thanks for everything that you did to me,
everything that you gave.

Worry about you again, 1.11am

Thanks lord,Finally I know she's feeling better.

Hope you alright.

I really hope you are fine.That's the bigger wish that i hope for.As long as you alright,I will be fine too.

To the Lord, I can't make her happy, but I believe you can. Because you are lord.

Missing you again on 4.12am-sleep well k.

Sunday Morning

Today, I recieved your messege.
You want me to do you something for you.
which is stop contact you anymore.
You said you want to forget about me.
And I should know that.

I wish you from bottom of my heart.
I prayed to god,
wants him to give you the better,the best.
This morning I wash my face with tears.
I think I should give you more time to forget about me.

I saw the things that you gave me,
the drawing that you drew,
every single things that we did.
I really miss all that.really do.

I need time to cool down too.

Good Luck to you,make sure you happy than ever.

and wanna tell ya, I'm Missing you.

Gloomy Saturday

I woke up,
I dont know what I doing.
On my laptop,
go to gmail,
and I doesnt know what should I do with that.
The messege that you reply,
even slower.

Take care, and sorry that I hurt you.
I dont mean to.
Find a person that can love you more.
Find a person that treat you better.
I cant hold you forever.
and I cant make you happy like before.
Go for your better life,
make sure you have better than now,
make sure the guy is 100 times better than me.
I dont want see your tears anymore.

I wish you can hear what I say,
what I type.
Wanted send you a mail,
but I scare that will make it even worse.
Thanks for being with me almost 2 years.
37days more is our anniversary,
2nd anniversary.
We couldnt make it for the second one.
Planning to design you a card,
as usual.
But, no more.No more chance.

So gloomy today,
so gloomy.

The Ending.

19th of May,
I notice that you are not in the good mood.
I asked why,and you said nothing.
Mid night, I received your sms.
Ask me still love you or not.
Yes I do, I answered.
But from the way you reply,
you doesnt believe me.
I know the relationship faded.
But, in my heart, I still have you.

I really love you, I really really do.
I did hurt you, and I said I willing to let you go.
I believe, this is only way I could make you happy,
make you smile even more.
So long never see you really happy,so long.
I hope, this is the best thing I can do for you.
I really don't want you to go,
I did try hold you tied.
But each time I try,I bring even more hurt to you.

I wish you could even more understand me.
I wish I could even have more time to care about you.
How I wish we can do many things that we want to.

Now is 4.50am.20th May.
No answer from you,
maybe you sleeping.
sweet dream.
and please allowed me to say it one last time,
Bee,I love you.

想念

天,
渐渐暗了。
风,
渐渐停了。
我们,
渐渐长大,渐渐改变。
昨天的你不见了。
明天的我也不一样了。
是环境改变了我们,
还是我们该是时候成长了。
当时的我们是多么的无知。
但为何却那么的快乐。

好想回到过去,
回到当时的我们。

真的好想念当时无知却快乐的我们。

The Old days,Dash

This is a article from ROTTW,about the Tribute to british band's gig in Malacca. In the picture, from left, Tal, Me, and Kit. That time my hair was fucking brownish and long.haha..miss that..

On the gig, we played Cranberries songs. Zombie was the 'greatest hitz' of our band. and very soon, the song banned, coz get bored of that song..ahaha..that's more story about my ex band. but I'm lazy now, i just woke up.Maybe next time.

echo from the heart side

I messed up.
I fucked up.
It seems to be simple,
but I cant explaine.
Why?
I don't know.
God knows,perhaps.
I don't think you know.
If not you wont just blame on me.
Ya, My fault.Always my fault.
I'm so fuckin emo now.
Can I blame on you?
Fuck it.Is my fault again right?

Our dreams faded.
Our feeling faded.
That's the imformation I get from you.
I feel you telling me.
Should I let the ballon off my hand?
or I should hold it as long as i could?
No one can help,don even my self.
because,
I'm messed up.
and Fucked up.

I did try.
and I still trying.
Just you can't see.
Just you can't feel.
Don't ask me why,
because I don't know.
I dont want you to hurt.
but I don't want get hurt too.
It's hard,real hard.

No fair in this game.
No winner or loser.

We used to have wonderful date.
Just you and me,just simple drink.
I tried to make my self more talkative,
so we can have many thing to chat.
We enjoyed every single date.

But why,
is that so different?
Is my fault? Really only mine?
Maybe.
I really don't know
I shouldn't make you cry.
I shouldn't make you love me.
I shouldn't hurt you again and again.
I fucked up,okay?

I really messed up,really.

One way ticket to hell and back


that day I ask my fren help me download The Darkness new album(release quite long ago actually). here's the CD cover.

I'm not gonna do a review of it. Well, if you like The Darkness, you will like this album too..

I like one way ticket to hell and back, and blind man. Blind Man is the only slow emo song n this album.

here's the lyric.









"Blind Man"
Tell me why the blind man cries

Oh, he sheds a tear because he just can't hear the children singing

How he used to fantasize

Of standing next to some children who are doing singing

Ah!

Amd the shoulders get colder and colder

And his tearsAnd his tears fall on deaf ears

Ooh!

Falling apart

At the seams and no-one seems to care

You can't cry forever

Eileen wouldn't want you to, I swear

Now he's just an empty shell

Oh, since Eileen died the other side seems so appealing

Compared to this living hell

Oh, she haunts his sleep, his wounds too deep for any healing

Ah!With his arteries starting to harden

She is gone

She is gone and it's all wrong

Falling apart

At the seams and no-one seems to care

You can't cry forever

Eileen would want you to, I swear

So there.

lazy blogger

I'm still alive,don worry.




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